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Always random, always approaching divine...
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wMay 31, 2001 |
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driving late at night
with the stars above my head
relieves nothing now
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I found my glasses today, after looking for them for a long time. I had my prom yesterday. It was a disaster. Yet today, I found my glasses. Today I found clarity in an increasingly blurry world. Hopefully clarity in vision will portend clarity in life.
If I have clarity in life, everything else will fall into place.
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Brian J. McGuirk at 12:40 AM
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wMay 29, 2001 |
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"Those emails are gonna be worth something some day." -Emelie.
Wow do we both have ego problems. If you're even reading thus, Internet public at large, can you give us a holla? mannix2k@hotmail.com or circe10@hotmail.com . Just tell us that you're fucking listening.
Thanks.
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Brian J. McGuirk at 12:48 AM
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wMay 24, 2001 |
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Was John Lennon wrong? Did that fucker lie? Is love not all you need? Do you need love and the right circumstances and compatible personalities and similar ambitions and political views? Or do you just need love? Do you really need to be in the right place and time for love to work? Or can we, if we possess it, use the brute strength of love to just pound through obstacles that stand in the way? Or is there like a prerequisite maturity level? Love can't work between two people until one of them climbs the wall and can see the yard next door? I don't fucking buy that.
Then why is it true?
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Brian J. McGuirk at 12:57 AM
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What think ye of unbounded knowledge and morality in this situation: a man kisses a beautiful woman but thinks only of another woman whom he does not currently possess, but goes through with the first ordeal anyway out of a need to have something rather than the nothign he cannot have.
Is that so horrible? Will that man be condemned for all time for loving two people at the same time but in entirely different ways? Please God inform me, tell me what the fuck that man should do, because I sure as hell can't figure it out.
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Brian J. McGuirk at 12:45 AM
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We've all heard the joke about the blowjob and the cup of coffee, but, no joke, that's all I really want right now.
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If anyone can email me and tell me what the fuck the Maimonides were, without looking it up, you'll get something cool, so help me God.
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If someone dies on the exact date and time that deathclock.com says they should, their family should get like a million dollars or something.
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Brian J. McGuirk at 12:39 AM
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wMay 22, 2001 |
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Music is biorythmic. It has a profound effect on me. It is the soundtrack to my life. I don't need drugs to know what people on ecstacy feel like. When I DJ, when I listen to loud music in a crowd of hundreds of people, I feel the bass go directly through me. The music takes control. I'm no longer moving, but doing what the song tells me to do. The new radiohead song "I Might Be Wrong" has this effect on me. I can be alone in my house, windows closed, late at night, turn that song on loud and just feel it. That beat strikes a cord somewhere. The rise and fall, the hammering away... goes right through me. It's almost an out of body experience. The Drugs Don't Work, to quote the Verve, and I don't need them. The music is my drug itself. I get higher than anybody ever could being drug-inspired...
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Brian J. McGuirk at 5:07 PM
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National Baseball Hall of Fame
Today's Random Link of the Day brought to you by Random.com. This is where the greatest of the great live forever. Baseball holds such tremendous power over the American psyche. I can't watch a baseball game, from my little league team to the Red Sox without my heart beat quickening a bit, waiting for the rhythm of the game to sync in, the crack of the bat to come at the expected time. I know baseball. I could watch a game even if I were blind. It's ingrained in me. The greates of the great, the Williamses, the Mayeses, the Mantles, the Ruthes, touch our souls directly, fight epic battles with grace and sagicity. They are gone, but here they live forever.
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Brian J. McGuirk at 5:00 PM
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wMay 21, 2001 |
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What fools these mortals be....
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5 days left till my high school career is over. jesus....
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Brian J. McGuirk at 12:35 AM
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I think the last person to die, of those I talked to today, would be Erin K. She has a grace and a strength about her that few people have. I've seen it in a comparable mode with women of extreme longevity. I was actually thinking about her future. She's an intriguing person. I wonder if she's fallen in love yet. I wonder if she'll fall in love while at colllege with some guy that will treat her badly. Then she'll go to her best guy friend for consolation, and they'll both realize that they are the ones that they've been looking for. Then maybe 50 years later, she'll lay that man to rest, and sit in her house thinking about all that she's seen and done. She'll go on living, not merely existing, because that's the best way to honor the man who loved her for so long. She'll go on, make an impact, and just keep going. She's a track star now. I think she's just going to keep running till she stops and sees that no one else in running with her anymore.
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Too cold by far. Hunger and fatigue are passive maladies, at least to me. Cold is an active, penetrating force that demoralizes as it permeates.
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Brian J. McGuirk at 12:06 AM
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Stopping By Woods On A Snowy Evening
by Robert Frost
Whose woods these are I think I know.
His house is in the village though;
He will not see me stopping here
To watch his woods fill up with snow.
My little horse must think it queer
To stop without a farmhouse near
Between the woods and frozen lake
The darkest evening of the year.
He gives his harness bells a shake
To ask if there is some mistake.
The only other sound's the sweep
Of easy wind and downy flake.
The woods are lovely, dark and deep.
But I have promises to keep,
And miles to go before I sleep,
And miles to go before I sleep.
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Emelie is a master of the debate of the completely inconsequential. Like checkmarks.
I have work to do.
The fight goes on...
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Metahead.com
Formerly the most beautiful and inspirational site on the net, this artsy practical joke is like someone writing, post-armageddon, "BOOBIES" on the door of the Vatican...
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The Game Society: The New Empire of Gamers
Today's Random Link of the Day brought to you buy Random.com. I think this is where all the Dungeon's & Dragon's Fans of the world went after their hopes that the rest of the world would respect them becuase of the inspirational movie that they brought about were dashed due to horrible reviews and CGI that made people yawn. Man, whoever out there designs these websites should be shot. This guy has no clue as to color, text schemes, anything... Jesus. This is like my first webpage, but he has his own domain. That's so annoying.
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It seems God is not the only one who's sense of humor needs work.
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"Omnipotent fingertips." Does that mean I am a tool of God? If it does, then that means that everything I'm doing is sanctioned by the almighty. It occured to me the other day, maybe the only thing God has going over us is that he's better at math. Maybe he's just got a bigger computer than we can imagine. One the the tenants of chaos theory, I believe, is that there are always too many factors to factor in to trying to get an exact answer. Maybe God just knows all the factors, and can therefore compute how things will turn out. That said, he probably knows exactly what to do in order to change things the way he wants, if that's the type of deity that jives with you of course. So, really, if I have omnipotent fingertips and I'm a tool of God, the intended object of my actions is probably somewhere around the world, or in orbit perhaps? :) Example: God wants to make Mubutu Khaliza in Namibia, yet to be born, live a good life. If I'm a tool of God, then that guy I beeped at in my car this afternoon could get on a plane, be in a darker or perhaps more pensive mood than he would have otherwise. While talking to his stewardess, unchanged by god wind currents make the plane shutter just enough for the ice picture to slip and rotate in her hands, spilling the icy contents in his lap and on top of his laptop. The man I beeped at, rather than being annoyed, is taken by the way that the cylindrical ice cubes move and split open as they come near the heat exhaust of his humming computer. He immediately wonders, and God knows this because he can predict all the factors necessary for a given outcome, that if the heat of a regular chemical reaction were perfect, and a micro-capsule perfectly engineered to be sustainable, then human blood could give itself tylenol when it recognizes a fever. Maybe viruses have a particular heat signature, he thinks, and immediately starts scribbling, forgetting the ice, forgetting his sparking, smoking laptop. He goes on to forge a new direction in disease treatment. He irradicates AIDS, Cancer, etc and thus Mubutu Khaliza is born without AIDS becuase his mother was treated with a treatment developed by the guy I made think a new way because I beeped at him when he ran a stop sign on the other side of the world.
Maybe God's just really good at math. His sense of humor certainly needs work...
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Today's Posit: techno and raggae have biorhythmic properties.
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Bruin Club Tour: Sciences Library
Color coded by the pH level? Is this intellectualism run mad? Is this necessary? Or is it cute? Is it a declaration of pure pursuit of knowledge? Or is it cute and unnecessary? You be the judge. Check it out.
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"I was sitting in my room, I had just woken up (after 1.5 hrs of sleep - it was like 6), and the entire house was quiet, there was just a little breeze, and the light that came in was that aqua blue that only appears early in the morning or at sunsets late in summer? And I just sat there and didn't move. I wondered what would happen. and I just sat and stared at the floor. normally this'd just be a waste of time, but I was like deeply at peace and literally felt myself leave my body and go out my window and away into the sky. the first couple of times like my conscious self tried to stop it from happening and I almost fell off the bed, but then I just sort of let it happen. it was amazing. I got interrupted, my parents came back from breakfast, but it was so cool." --Last Night
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It works!! God Bless American Ingenuity.
posted by
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That's all I've gotten for the last hour. I just want to upload and then go finish all my other work, but no. But no. That'd be far too simple...
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To follow up on something I was talking to a friend about the other day, there are infinite connections and coincidences in life that are highly ironic. In the course of one day a month ago, I met three people named Emily, in three seperate places, two of whom worked together but I didn't know that, the other one lived in the same building as Emily #1. This is fairly obvious coincidence. Some are far more subtle. Some, in order for me to explain them adequately, require an indepth knowledge of the inner workings of my mind. I compare these workings to gears: occasionally, the timing and alignment of the gears of my mind will shift, and the pattern that results is externally similar but vastly different thought pattern. I'm not bipolar, I don't randomly flip modes (an unintentional Busta Rhymes reference), but occasionally something will not necessitate, necessarily, but engender, I guess, a change in my thought patterns, a change in gears.
Some of the coincidences that I've been seeing lately, I've only seen because of the particular gears that were in motion. It's an odd sensation, rather like the external feeling one gets during meditation, to know that something would not have been seen had some one been in another mode of thinking. It makes one wonder how much one misses on a daily basis. This adds to my general feeling of being incapable of handling every aspect of life. My friend Jer, a metaphor wizard, compared my life to a box in which everything in my life fit except maybe 2 things. So I try to stuff those two things in three more things fall out. The process continues. This metaphor is so accurate that I think about it with about every decision I make.
I need a bigger box. Then I'll see all the coincidences and have much more to post here. :)
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THE SUNDAY TIMES: NEWS
What WILL they think of next? I have to wonder, though, if this technology exists on a microscopic scale, as in, it exists in some Londoner's house, and works when he's in direct contact with it, is the only thing preventing its application on a global scale the power of the receiver? Could this be the ultimate public opinion poll? Could a democracy emerge based entirely on this technology?
There's also the potential for abuse to consider, but like nanotechnology, the benefits would probably outweigh the risks. It's amazing, and I almost feel bad for how much Corporate America (TM) effects my everyday thought patterns, but truly the biggest risk is not taking one.
posted by
Brian J. McGuirk at 9:37 PM
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